Twain twain twain

[queenofzan]

This only scratches the surface of all the shit I'm feeling right now. (hi dad, hi gramma, sorry about my mouth, I get it from you guys)

So I'm getting an arts degree. Like, not two hours ago I had my interview to be officially admitted to the theatre department for a b.a. I love art. I draw, and I act, and I sew, and I love to make things and use things to reflect the world around me and sometimes just be pretty. I love it. Music and visual art and performance art, I don't understand how people could ever live without them and say they think they don't matter. I just don't get it. They're important.

But at the same time, I love science. I love it. I just...biology and chemistry and physics, they make sense, they put things in order, and I think they're more beautiful just by virtue of being true than almost any art I've ever seen. I mean, art is pretty. It's nice to look at. Really good art moves me. But science...science always moves me. I mean, I get weepy to speeches from like Carl Sagan and Richard Feynman. I do. It's a little ridiculous.

And I feel a little torn, because art people and science people are totally opposite, both in viewpoint and physically (at least on this campus I mean really they're like fifteen minutes away walking) and never the twain shall meet. And I'm sitting here explaining evolution and shit to my theatre friends, and they are all looking at me like I'm crazy because the only other thing I get so passionate about is Pokemon grammar. I feel like the mixed kid from the fifties, part of both worlds but not really allowed in either.

Because damn, those sciencey kids look at you like you're stupid when you tell them you're studying theatre. They look betrayed, like "Oh, I thought you were one of us". I don't know.

MY POINT IS ALL MY THEATRE FRIENDS HAVE SPENT THE LAST WEEK BITCHING ABOUT THEIR SCIENCE REQUIREMENTS AND I WAS REALLY DISAPPOINTED I COULDN'T TAKE MINE THIS SEMESTER.

Comments

[hazeymarie.livejournal.com]

I would point you at a journal entry I made over 2 1/2 years ago that quite closely resembles this one, but that would take effort and I dun wanna. Besides my entry covering the exact same conflict is less with the valid reasons why I wanted them both and more with the "because I like them and... um.. I dunno."

My point is, I feel your pain.

My double-major-which-I'm-not-sure-is-even-a-double-major-anymore-because-the-science-department-never-contacts-me-like-ever also feels your pain.

However, you are ahead of me already (wait, what?) because you are officially admitted to your major. I... still have to pass portfolio review.

No one has even told me what becomes of my ASU credits if I don't pass portfolio review. It's like they don't want to talk about it. Or maybe they can't, MAYBE I HAVE TO JOIN FIGHT CLUB IF I FAIL. They did advise us not to stress over it though, it's only what we've worked 2+ years of our lives for, not that big a deal. *facepalm*

Anyhow that's not until at least next April so meh.

[queenofzan.livejournal.com]

If the art people are anything like the theatre people it really won't be that bad at all. But honestly why do people think the two are mutually exclusive? They seem to me like two sides of the same coin.