maybe several things

Now that the big family Christmas is out of the way, I put all my gifts away and cleaned my room, so now I am free to start working in earnest again.

...I honestly have no idea how I feel about that. I mean, I was doing work, but it was all going towards Shannon's gift, and really wasn't part of a longer narrative (though since I basically ended up giving Shannon a book for Christmas devised entirely of BACKSTORY I guess it is part of a longer narrative after all, ha). Now I really need to get back into the swing of Stephen's and websiting (since I now have two helpful books on HTML as well as the internet at large, in my room, as resources) and enjoying the fact that I have no classes to be behind in.

But it seems silly to get back in the swing of working just now, since Sophie will be here tomorrow and then I will just have a week of her. I mean, she is here so I spend the time working? That's a not. But then right after she leaves I start rehearsals for Bajour!

I guess the bottom line is, it is now Christmas and I need to either do work or go to bed, because the work at least is going to become a luxury.

...in other news, I have a very odd work ethic.

I am so angry at everything right now. I am so tempted to just go take a shower and call it a night, because seriously, I fail to see how anything could be worth all this shit. I would rather go to the crappy in-state college with my friends and get kicked out of AP than finish all this crap when it is all ACTIVELY FIGHTING ME.

Also: haven't been able to write all weekend and that is probably part of the reason I am so pissy because SERIOUSLY WTF.

ETA: Okay, took a shower and feeling better now. Still frustrated with the whole application thing. Seriously, ASU is looking better and better everyday, if only because their electronic paperwork is FUNCTIONAL. (Okay, that's not the only reason.)

Now doing research for a book idea I got that I could, for once, sell; let's just say that NA and possibly other twelve step programs would be fairly important, so I've been doing research to refresh my memory, and really, I am completely unable to imagine my childhood without these influences.

Also, would probably need to start going to meetings with Dad again, which I'm sure would make him very happy, but I don't know if he goes to any meetings on days when I am unlikely to have school or rehearsal. Or at times I can be there. Whatever, I'll just talk to him about it.

YES I AM PRETTY EXCITED BY THIS IDEA. Still, kinda depressing A LITTLE, so I'm going to write about WITCHES and eat another COOKIE or two. Kthxbai.

Brain doesn't shut up.

Got Google Chrome today. Loving it so far.

Number of times made fun of by teachers: too many to count. (Including one today implying that I was unsure of my gender. Way to go, Decker! Doc's comment about my ridiculously tiny feet pales in comparison.)

Got parts in The Birds today. I am an activist and the emo-teen messenger goddess Iris. Well, she wasn't emo in the script, but she is now! And she has a page and a half monologue, plus several other scenes. Oh well. (On the other hand, I get to curse someone when he tries to kiss me, which is just funny.)

I've been neglecting Livejournal lately because Twitter makes it feel kind of redundant. On a related note: I am so glad I have unlimited texting.

In case anyone missed the memo, I love pens. And also spies.

And also House omg the PI guy is amazing I want him to staaaaay even though I am sad that Wilson was like "kthx bai". (also, Wilson sucks.)

Oh! And funny story! The guy I marry in The Birds is played by the same guy I kill in our scene for the Utah Shakespeare festival! In The Birds, I hate him but end up marrying him. In Richard III, I am a loyal servant of his, and then I end up basically killing him. This has no bearing on anything and just sort of amuses me.

Also, I love Due South. With a passion. But DO NOT ever try to finish an episode of Due South during the commercial breaks for House. They just do not go well together.

And for everyone following me on Twitter (meaning like four people--sorry, five now), this entry is nothing but reiteration! Ahahaha.

Okay, so. Um. School started? They didn't screw up my schedule, for the first time ever. I don't have anything to complain about, actually, since I like all my teachers and I am actually on free lunch (finally!) and they have been serving edible food!!! Color me amazed.

I have also been writing like crazy since the day before school started (last Sunday). Like, my word count right now would be acceptable for if I was doing this for NaNo. And yet I am not rushing and it is of the quality I would show to people. I'm a little worried, actually. Then again, I haven't had time to do anything else, so I guess it's not that odd. (Seriously, I come home, eat, walk and feed the dog, and go to my room and write until it's ten or eleven and then I go to sleep.)

As soon as I can get the pictures that go along with it scanned, I'll be posting it somewhere. It's going to be posted here, for now, at least.

Also: computer sans internet in room. I think that's why the writing has been all RAR SPEED OF LIGHT, is because Word and iTunes and large quantities of tea are apparently all I need.

ALSO ALSO I got my money for AcaDec last Thursday, so I went shopping Saturday, and I got tights and art supplies and I spent $60 dollars on video games I apparently can't play. So, anyone have a spare 1 gigahertz CPU laying around? (muuuuust haaaaaave simsssssss)

THAT IS ALL.

Okay, so I just churned out seven pages of gender-swapped Hartigan brothers stuff. This is what happens when you let me write from Jubal's point of view! (well, it really is Jewel's, whatever) I get super carried away and oh my god I don't even know how long this is going to go on because there is still a lot of stuff to go.

I GUESS IT WILL BE A HELL OF A BONUS.

...I should really be working on the epilogue because really, the bragging rights of having really finished a book don't work when you still have about 1700 words to go. And I really need to have a print version like the first week of school, so I can walk into Decker's class and be all HA! (he has been doubting my evaluation of the writing situation, and I would love to prove him very very wrong, very very obnoxiously.)

Also, one would never be able to tell that Decker is one of my favorite teachers ever by how I've talked about him here. Ahaha.

I had a really great day. A really, really great day. See, this is what happens when you wear an Indiana Jones-style adventuring hat. Good things happen.

Good random makeouts happen.

...Well, random is probably stretching it. For that matter, so is makeout. I mean, I don't think a year and a half of Will They or Won't They and SnapBack buildup is really random. Still, it felt random at the time. And freakin' sweet.

In other news, I have done no writing at all since Monday! Though I do have a random subplot rattling around my head...for which there is no story. Why do I have a subplot and no main plot? Usually, it is the other way around. But that is slightly more useful. I mean, what can I do with just a subplot? NOT A LOT.

In yet more other news, tonight's episode of Saturday Night Live was actually mildly amusing. Wow!

Also, I love e.e. cummings. A lot. Like, a lot a lot. Have for a while now.

Also also: I am now a senior. Part of me wants to be like WOOHOO, and part of me is wondering why the hell I'm not out of high school yet. Though given how fast this last year went...(What do you mean it's May?)

I reiterate, however! A good day. A really, amazingly good day that I'm sure will crash down around my ears in a few days/weeks. Oh well. At least I can enjoy it for now, eh?

p.s. let's all pretend I didn't lapse into trope there in the middle, shall we?

Man, spring break is over. And I didn't do any writing at all, all week. Wow.

See, this is what happens when I don't go to school. A whole lot of nuthin'.

Though I did get pretty far replaying Ocarina of Time for the seventeenth time. This time, I even made it to the future! XD

Seriously though, that game still terrifies the crap out of me at points. OoT ReDeads? Terrifying. TP ReDeads, less so. I have no idea why. The TP ReDeads look more real. Maybe they look real enough that I know they aren't, whereas the OoT ReDeads just look disturbing.

Also what the hell blood curdling shrieks in this game. ReDeads, Great Fairies...no wonder this game fucking terrified me when I first got it. I was seven! This game is still frightening in parts! Why did my mother let me play this thing?

Also also I did do a lot of arting things this week. Though most of it was on, y'know, paper, and thus won't see the light of the internet for a while now.

Wow it is late and I should go to bed and stop screwing around on the internet. Imagine that.

Okay, so I gave into the peer pressure encouragement.

From now on, For Want of a Physicist will be available for your reading pleasure at its own journal, fwoap. That will be updating every day or so until it's caught up to where I've posted here, with the chapters posted there being deleted from here as I go.

I will also be doing some editing in the process of transferring them from journal to journal, so if you'd like to see the differences, that's how to go about it.

Forward, into my mad descent adventure! And whatnot.

On a completely unrelated note, I hung out with my also unrelated sister-cousin Chelsie today. 'Twas fun! We had dinner and saw a movie. There was surprisingly little catching up to do, given that we haven't seen each other in two years. She has a job and a boyfriend, and I have a hole in my face. Also, she was totally at a strip club last night with her boyfriend, which I found hilarious.

On another unrelated note, I sound even more like a teenager in real life!

Because she asked and my birthday is in...however many days it is from today until the 25th, here is a list of things it would be awesome to own. Pretty much everything is a little thing, except for the first thing on the list. (I figure if I say it often enough, it'll happen one day.)

-Xbox 360

-Stuff from the XKCD store
Including but not limited to! The actual size stickers, the switch and button stickers, and the Just Shy shirt. Also pretty much everything else in the store.

-Stuff from the Questionable Content Store Especially the "Everything is Ruined Forever " shirt and the "Math is Delicious" shirt. Yes I am strange. You knew that, I'm sure.

-The I solve my problems through violence shirt from here (if you have ever met me in real life, you probably know how true that is, pacifism or not)

-Also welcome is the first book in the Thursday Next series. Or any of the books from that series. I've been meaning to read it for like two and a half years, but it is strangely difficult to find books in the library when you don't know the author or the title. (I should probably work on that.)

Also, for those of you who are interested, I'm past 13000 words. Just not done with chapter four. (It is close, I promise you! I had auditions and a few projects due today, if you'll accept excuses.)

ETA: ALSO A PAID ACCOUNT WOULD BE NICE. I miss my icons....